GOing to try just walking. No attempts to jog. The goal is to get some mileage and but not speed. Just did a long-ish walk for me and it wasn’t that bad. My shins don’t hurt but I can tell they were pushed. Going to try this for a week or two and see how it pans out for weight loss.
So I started feeling guilty this week about being sick and haven’t made progress losing weight. Decided to push myself really hard yesterday to make up for it. Now my damn ankle is swollen and my shins are on fire. I should have let myself recover more before trying to set things right again.
I think I am going to take some time off from limping and just lift weights. Wouldn’t mind riding an exercise bike but I am afraid I’ll break em.
Got a bit of a bug. Dizziness, fever, chills and disorientation. Lovely mix. Going to take it easy.
Uhm… Big talk last night coming out of me about today. Lots of bravado and posturing. Which doesn’t fare well when I let work get in my way. Did manage to run at lunch when I saw what kind of day it was going to be. Maybe tomorrow I’ll get off in time for the 5k.
Note that I said “let” instead of some of the other word choices. I really should have just left work instead of trying to get ahead. Doesn’t seem like anything I do to get ahead really gets me ahead. But it is a seductive siren’s call. Stay a few minutes later, roll that DUS package out tonight instead of tomorrow. Reply to that email now instead of tomorrow.
Decided to try and find a 5k for the fall. Something to train for. A goal if you will. Figure between now and then I’ll be able to at least get my time down to something that isn’t completely embarrassing.
http://arkansasrunner.com/calendar.htm
This site has a some ones that fit the bill. This one looks good. Although, if I remember correctly Batesville is a small town and it may not be the best of places to stretch into a weekend trip.
Especially considering the weight chart… Damn, I hope this all muscle gain as my body acclimates to exercise.
Caught a bit of the movie Hudson Hawk earlier and now I have that song stuck in my head. Meh… Guilty pleasure movie since it is so over the top with some of its jokes. So bad it is good.
Was set to go for a lunch time run today but had an unexpected doctor’s appointment. Can’t say that it would have taken much to dissuade me. Weather has been horrible. So to offset my laziness, I made sure to eat a salad for dinner. (As you can tell buy my weight graph, that isn’t the dinner of choice.)
Weather is supposed to be real nice tomorrow. Right now my fastest 5k time is 56:17. A rather pitiful amount. Tomorrow I am going to try and better it. FIgure the worst that’ll happen is that I’ll rack up 5k. The best is that I lower my time and can use it to help keep me motivated. Either way I win, maybe.
Not so good these past few days. Stress at work and at home has ended up being the excuse du’jour. New team, means new people to train up and new shit to fix. Starting to see the glimmer of easiness behind the tarnished surface. The home life has been in the shitter since last month’s IUI didn’t work and we got turned down by two banks for a loan to start the adoption process. Banker said I should have spent more time building up equity instead of paying off debt. Said our debt to income ratio was amazing but our lack of collateral was a deal killer. Can’t blame them since they have there own jobs to do. Just pisses me off that I can remember me and Shannon consciously making the decision to pay down debt rather than build equity in the house. Picked the wrong one for this situation.
But that wasn’t the kicker. I actually want to us to do a few more months of IUI and hold off on starting the adoption process. Turns out I don’t get as much say as I assumed I should. Still working on that discussion. Still working through that one but it just feels shitty to give up with the only medical explanation being “Unexplained Infertility”. What kinda bullshit diagnosis is that? Who decided that the “I don’t know” excuse is allowed? You think there would have been announcement over the PA or some memo sent out. Would have been real handy back during calculus.
THe final straw is stumbling across this statute. But since my health insurance is through an HMO they don’t have to offer this kind of coverage. So everything relating this has been out of pocket expenses, which leads back to the first paragraph about needing money and being unhappy with work. Merry fucking go round of stress and loathing.
So fuck feeling bad about not losing weight this week. Hell, I am just glad that I made it 6 miles this week.
Haven’t even begun to try and improve my mileage or pace. Just glad to have been able to stick with a frequent schedule. One more week of just making sure to show up and then it’ll be time to try increase the pace. I almost was tempted to wear the Nike+ stuff while cutting grass. Was curious about how much distance is it to cut my yard. But that would have screwed up my numbers and probably isn’t as far as I think it would be.
Did have a setback yesterday though at Buffalo Wild Wings. Hot damn, I can’t resist their Caribbean Jerk flavored wings. Might need to figure out a menu item that is better for me and yet can still have that sauce on it. It felt so bad but tasted so good to eat those wings with a pint of Boulevard Wheat. The only real lesson I took for that was that if I don’t find a release, I’ll end up pig-ing out.
I know I shouldn’t be expecting miracles. Especially considering having a hiatus for a while. That and the nominal ramp up time it takes for your body to generate new muscle for what you are doing. But I would love to see the damn scale at least budge a bit. At least I get to notice the money I am saving by not going out to eat lunch. That is until the next thing breaks around here. Need to get back on track with setting up a ladder of CD’s for an emergency fund. ING’s good and all that but too tempting having the emergency fund so liquid.
Was able to push myself hard enough to actually have a good workout without overdoing it on my bad ankle. For once I knew my limits and when to stop… Need to transfer that experience to eating pizza.
So here I sit feeling physically tired but energetic and happy at feeling tired. Unfortunately, I have a Hebrew saying that comes to mind right now. This too shall pass. In the bad times it reminded me to take solace that things will eventually take a turn for the better. During the good times it reminded me that eventually things will suck. Damnable saying and its dual purpose. SO while I am stoked and all energetic about starting working out again I have to remember that it is the long haul that counts no the short term.
This week at work should be pretty good. Shareholders is going on so there is always a few good concerts to check out. Journey and All American Rejects should be pretty bad ass.